Thursday, January 13, 2011

The Hardest Weeks

As you might have guessed from the lack of blog posts lately, the last few weeks have been both busy and hard for Erin. We had a wonderful Christmas and New Year's with family visiting us. But as I mentioned in an earlier post, the first week of January not only brought another round of chemotherapy, but also a revised (and more aggressive) plan for Erin's chemotherapy treatment. The doctors do believe the tumor is shrinking, but they still want to be sure to do everything in their power to make sure Erin is cancer free in 2011.

In many ways, I think the next six weeks could be the hardest weeks of Erin's cancer journey. Physically, Erin's body is growing increasingly weak. Chemotherapy has something of a cumulative effect on the body, making each new treatment harder to bear and recover from than the last. It is hard for Erin to not be able to do all of the things she wants to do and loves to do (especially caring for Lydia, Hudson, and baby Samuel). Emotionally, this period of Erin's journey has the potential to be somewhat disorienting. The doctors can hypothesize, but there is almost no way to know whether these treatments are really shrinking the tumor and preventing the spread of the cancer. For chemotherapy patients, it can be incredibly hard to submit to treatment after treatment with little or no knowledge of what is happening to the cancer. Imagine fighting in the front lines of a war day after day with no knowledge of whether your side is moving towards victory or defeat. The situation can be both confusing and discouraging.

All this is to say that I, as Erin's husband, feel she needs more prayer and encouragement during the next six weeks than before and (probably) than she will after these weeks are over. Please pray (1) that she will trust and hope in God's promises to her, (2) that God will give her the physical and emotional strength she needs to go through the coming weeks, and (3) that her chemotherapy treatment will be successful in eliminating the cancer. We have seen God answer countless prayers through this process already, and trust that He will be faithful to answer these as well.

Thank you all for praying for and caring for my precious wife (and children)!